Keeping in mind this blog is just to remind myself of some negativity energy that has been surrounding me these past few years and now, I am sincerely hoping that depending on the audience, what I write does not affect my present and future friendships. I have a lot of positive energy to offer as well.  I was told that keeping a blog would be somewhat therapeutic anyhow or it may dig me deeper into a hole.

Triple whammy. I don’t think I’m ready to acknowledge this 4-part devastation as a fact just yet however after much research, it may be the cause of my lethargy and downward spiral of my inner self.  I asked one of my best friend’s how he would react if he were told this type of news. He said that he probably wouldn’t react too well. It probably hasn’t hit me with full force yet.  My dreaded appointment comes on August 7th, 2013.

I’ve told six people so far.  My sister-in-law is visiting for the week and I even told her.  She was surprised at how I can talk about my health issues so openly.  My brother doesn’t even know.  I made her promise that I will be the one who tells him.  August 7th.  I have been a very private person thus far, as not many people truly know the real me.  It seems to be a learning ordeal to me as well.

Work and surrounding myself with either family or friends definitely takes my mind off it.  My weeknights mostly look like this:

Yes.  She rests and sleeps on my arm as I type.

On another note, I’m truly happy for AB.  Their expected due date is tomorrow and I’m hoping they stick around so I can have an opportunity to be a positive role model for the kid.  I’m sure the anticipation is killing them.  I know for a fact that it is killing A and probably B too.