I’m in a really good mood right now. Might have to do with the 3 pints of Three Heads The Kind (6.8% ABV) I had at dinner at Char.

I realized that I only write on this blog when I’m feeling super uber down (with the exception of that one post trying to convince both Hannah and her dad on something haha). I guess it’s a good way to track where I am and my progress on lpp and when I’m not on lpp. Remind me never to go off lpp. Dark places are envisioned that should never be brought to light.

They say that many people who have been addicted to drugs and alcohol in the past tend to go through these periods of depression which may in turn cause a relapse. Will it cause a relapse on my end? Probably not. I have no desire to return to that state of dependence even though I’m pretty much dependent on the lpp. Does that make me an addict? Yes. But an abuser? No… though perhaps I’m an abuser in a way because I consumed alcohol when on the lpp. But I’m in control. I limited myself to 3 beers because I knew I had to drive and my last beer was 1.5 hours before heading out. H₂0 kept my fancy till the end.

Do I have problems? Yes. Does anyone want to hear about my problems? Probably not which causes another problem. Everyone has their own problems. Such is life.

This is what makes me a lonely guy but in my 20s I was never such. What happened?

I’m still in a good mood…

Why am I so emotional?
No, it’s not a good look, gain some self-control
And deep down I know this never works
But you can lay with me so it doesn’t hurt